Hit

Have you ever been hit with a sudden ache over a past love? I'm not talking about sudden waves of emotion that just wash over you. The song that makes you think of him. The scent that turns your head. I'm talking about the emotion that hits you like a brick in your gut. This happened to me recently.

One of my girlfriends, thanks to my introducing them *wink*, is dating the roommate of my ex-boyfriend. This past lover of mine was however out of town so I took the liberty of staying with my friend when I was passing through town. Well, he came back... with the girl he left me for. Luckily I didn't have to see them, but still, it ate at my soul. As I drove to my new place to stay for the night, I couldn't keep it in any longer. I bawled my eyes out. All of this despite the fact that I feel over him, and am happy that he found what he really needed. But she was there. In the bed that I once lounged in. In the arms that I once melted in. In the heart and mind of the man that I once cared for. And I was hit.